six months old.

Dear Ethan, 

I really can't believe you are already half a year old! It really feels like just yesterday that I snuggled you in my arms for the first time. You were so tiny and precious and smelled like heaven, I had never loved anyone more. 

Your perfect little face was just like your Dad's and that made me so happy. You tried your best to cry really loud but it was just so adorable all I could do was giggle. I couldn't believe how tall you were! So skinny and long, you loved ( and still love) to stretch all your little limbs out each time we unwrapped you. 

For so many months I had felt your every squirm and move and now here you were and I had to share you! We hadn't been apart ever and to be honest it was a bit strange the first time I handed you to your Dad so I could take a shower. I hadn't been alone in months and I felt lonely! 

I teared up each time I looked at your precious face. So perfect and crazy enough, just as I had pictured you. 

Time has flown and crawled all at the same time. I feel like you have always been here and I just can't picture my life without you in it! 

These days you are one happy little boy. Always inquisitive about everyone and everything, I think you are going to be very smart. You like to study each thing you touch. 

Your Dad makes you smile and laugh more than anyone, he's your best buddy. 5:45 is your favorite time of day and it's your favorite to wait at the top of the stairs for your bud. 

You just love mango. Cold, hot, pureed, chunky it doesn't matter- it's all your favorite! 

I think you are starting to say Mama but it could just be sounds you make. 

You are SO close to crawling. You scoot backwards and roll to wherever you want to go, but you just can't quite crawl- which is ok with me! 

I love you so much little man. You have shown me my purpose in this world, and I am over the moon in love with you. 

Love, 

Your Mama